So, I seem to be having a 'go eat worms' kind of day... if you don't get the reference - you had a very deprived childhood devoid of all sorts of really dumb songs... Fortunately, I at least make myself laugh. Tomorrow, I'll put together the new edition of The Imaginary Word, something I love doing. Tonight I am throwing myself a bit of a pity party for no reason but that I feel like it. October tends to bring these sorts of shifts with it, has for the last ten years. It just happens that today, I am feeling more down than usual - like no one hears me - or cares what I have to say. Ideas that get shot down, comments made that go unnoticed, phone calls left unreturned... It only serves as a reminder to me of all the people I've lost to time, distance, or death. And that's not to count those I lost just because I could not find a balance between life and myself for several years. October is just like this. Up and down, beautiful and horrible. Sort of like when I dream of dragons - I love them and fear them, even in my dreams.
~S
Posted by Shade53 at October 13, 2005 10:10 PM