Not really but I wish it was. I'm struggling to keep my munchy tendancies in check but it's really hard to do. Fortunately, the hubster and I are doing this together. It makes it a lot easier to do. It keeps me motivated. Even though our goals are so very different, it's nice to have someone to push me when I need pushed (which is more often than it ought to be).
I am just so tired of feeling fat. I don't want to be a size 2. I don't even want to be a size 4 or 6. Even an 8 is pushing it for me - these hips have helped carry two children, I don't expect them to shrink over much and I've grown quite fond of this particular bra size and I'd really like to keep that (though a little added perkiness would be awesome). I figure, when I hit my goal, I'll be a nice curvy 10. I can SO live with that. Hell, I'd be happy at a size 16 if I didn't have this awful belly. When I really sit down to analyze what I see in the mirror - I've got two spots that need work - the belly and the thighs. Everything else - I'm good with. And when I think about it in those terms, it makes my goals seem more than reachable.
Finding the motivation is rough. Especially when it comes to not eating. I need to work on that. I love food - much more than I should. I always have. It's gotten worse since I learned to cook. I'm a pretty good cook - and unfortunately, it shows a bit too well. In time it will happen. I have to believe that or I'm finished before I start.
I have to add something to my list of equipment now - we have a bench. Not a machine, just a regular, plain bench. I won't be using it much until we reach toning phase. For the next few months, we're just in LOSE phase. But - it's nearing my excersize time and I need to get some things ready beforehand. Things to keep Mr. 3 out from under my feet. He thinks it's great fun when I'm doing the yoga stretches to get right under me and mimic me. It's cute but it makes accomplishing anything really difficult.
Posted by Shade53 at September 3, 2009 09:08 AM