typing one handed so - no formatting...
had a rough day. again.
Wolverine is spitting up every two minutes again.and he won't let me put him down. thats fine though cause i keep listening to the sounds of his breathing anyway. headed for dr on wednesday.
my grandmother's biopsy came back - all clear. no cancer. best news of the month let me tell you.
going to cut and paste this where appropriate... am probably going to be mia until we get this figured out.
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Lend me your fingers and I will gladly chew on them...
I don't think he's teething... not at 3 months... right? He loves to gum everything- my fingers, my shoulder, my face when he can. It's gotten to be comical.
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It's been a wee little while since I wrote... Crazyhorse is better. Wolverine is generally a good baby - overall anyway. I'm stretched nearly to my limit and feel like I'm faltering. I know that a lot of it is just me - my crazyass hormones and my crazyass brain. It's been a particularly dark month for me - unusually so. It bothers me - feeling like this - useless and helpless and weak. So - I find friends in books and usually this helps. Not so much this time around - at least not yet. So far, reading only serves to remind me that I've not got anything good written yet. not really. It doesn't help that I'm reading things I should have read years ago - many many years ago.
Overall - I have almost everything I ever wanted. I even have a few things I never thought I'd have, never thought I deserved. This of course is a double-edged sword for me as I keep waiting for the day where it all falls apart. I get twentyfour hangups in one day and I start to wonder just who the hell is calling my damned house.... I start to question, to get more suspicious than I should be, than I ought to be. Growing up I always figured I'd end up like my mom - a single mom, alone and very much independant. I'm not any of that and I guess I am left wondering when the rug is going to be pulled out from under me.
In anycase... at least I've written something of my own today - even if it is only a blog. That's all I've got in me to write today.
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