Not really but I wish it was. I'm struggling to keep my munchy tendancies in check but it's really hard to do. Fortunately, the hubster and I are doing this together. It makes it a lot easier to do. It keeps me motivated. Even though our goals are so very different, it's nice to have someone to push me when I need pushed (which is more often than it ought to be).
I am just so tired of feeling fat. I don't want to be a size 2. I don't even want to be a size 4 or 6. Even an 8 is pushing it for me - these hips have helped carry two children, I don't expect them to shrink over much and I've grown quite fond of this particular bra size and I'd really like to keep that (though a little added perkiness would be awesome). I figure, when I hit my goal, I'll be a nice curvy 10. I can SO live with that. Hell, I'd be happy at a size 16 if I didn't have this awful belly. When I really sit down to analyze what I see in the mirror - I've got two spots that need work - the belly and the thighs. Everything else - I'm good with. And when I think about it in those terms, it makes my goals seem more than reachable.
Finding the motivation is rough. Especially when it comes to not eating. I need to work on that. I love food - much more than I should. I always have. It's gotten worse since I learned to cook. I'm a pretty good cook - and unfortunately, it shows a bit too well. In time it will happen. I have to believe that or I'm finished before I start.
I have to add something to my list of equipment now - we have a bench. Not a machine, just a regular, plain bench. I won't be using it much until we reach toning phase. For the next few months, we're just in LOSE phase. But - it's nearing my excersize time and I need to get some things ready beforehand. Things to keep Mr. 3 out from under my feet. He thinks it's great fun when I'm doing the yoga stretches to get right under me and mimic me. It's cute but it makes accomplishing anything really difficult.
I have been horribly remiss about blogging lately - on all fronts. It's been quite the year - full of not so nice things. I am right now, the unhealthiest I have ever been. And the heaviest too (discounting pregnancy weight). These last few months, I haven't wanted to do anything more than be a veggie. That can't continue. The Hubster is feeling it too. So - we're embarking on a new plan. The farm is a LONG way away. The organic stuff, we do when we can, as we can.
I'm setting reasonable goals with a reasonable timeline. Even though I'd love to be skinny again by Christmas, that's just unlikely. I know me. It's going to take time and dedication but I'm really hoping that by June 1st of 2010, I can put on my bathing suit and not cringe. Even better - I'd like to wear my pretty bikini again. It's been many years since I could.
Technically this started last week but it's easier to measure from the first of the month. And I didn't want to start posting about this until I had a routine I was pretty sure I could stick to.
Every day I wake up feeling like I really want to skip my excersize that day. And every day, I do it anyway. I'm doing a combination of things - the floor excersizes I remember from my long ago dance classes, light weight training, and using the wii fit for my cardio - the boxing is awesome and never fails to make me sweat.
I plan to do biweekly weigh ins. I'm setting short goals at the moment while keeping my long term goals in my head. Weigh ins will be Tuesdays. Starting with today.
Today's Weight - 187
goal weight for 9/15 - 182
We'll see how it goes.
We're also changing how and what we eat. Better carbs, better fats, better proteins. And less of them. Increasing water intake and decreasing the snacking. I can't cut the snacking out entirely - I'm a snacky type of girl. But I can make better decisions. Garlic Triscuits instead of potato chips. Garlic stuffed olives or gouda cheese instead of sweets. (yes, I do indeed love my garlic). We'll see how it goes.
I'm hoping to blog about this a lot over the next nine months but I will not subject you to before pictures. Too depressing for me and too icky for you. As I get closer (or after I reach my goals) I might post a comparison set. I do have before pictures. I'm just not sharing them until some of the jiggle is gone. And boy do I have jiggle. Honestly, I still look pregnant and my baby is three. If I keep going this way, I'll never feel better about myself, never feel better period. So - away we go...
I don't have a lot of equipment. I have 2 8lb weights, resistance tubes, a wii fit, and a heavy bag. I want to add a resistance ball and a medicine ball when I can but there will be no real machines. I refuse to go to a gym - too many people looking at me. This may change as I get closer to the goal and start focusing more on tone than loss. But for now - that's what I've got. My favorite excersize is boxing/working with the heavy bag. It's just an all over burn that gets my heart going and gives me an outlet for my stress at the same time.
As I go, I may share excersizes or recipes I find, resourses that rock, whatever. Maybe you can get in shape with me.
Nine months to go. 45 pounds to lose.
Made it through the second day of 12 minute abs. Still mostly kicked my butt... and it probably will for this first week but, the fact that I took today better than yesterday is probably a good thing...
here's hoping I can keep it up.
~Sarah
12 minute Abs kicked my butt...
I'm going to try and do just that for the next week and then add in something else. I don't want to be dead just not fat!
So revised plan:
Week One: cook and eat healthier foods. 12 minute abs daily. stroll with Baby on nice days.
Week Two: same as week one with 12 minute arms and legs. (Yay for onDemand fitness!)
Week Three: same as week two with 10 minutes of Yoga
Week Four: Same as week three but change stroll to walk with hills and baby and add the 8 minute butt...
At the end of week four - I'll post a picture. It's the only way to keep myself honest - If I FORCE myself to post a picture...
~Sarah
It's safe to say, I don't have a very good one. At least, not anymore. There was a time in my life when I was a skinny thing - size 6 and still had curves. Now - I really look like a woman who's had kids. I compare myself to my family and I'm generally disgusted wtih myself. Even my feet are too big - size 10 boats. I'm not going near a scale -I'm upset enough just looking in a mirror...
Here's the deal. I'm going to do better. I'm going to start doing better. Eating less, eating better. Moving. Getting real excersize. I am going to do better!! My problem is motivation. I need to stay motivated.
The Plan:
Daily: 100 situps in any fashion (10 sets of 10, 5 sets of 20... whatever)
15 minutes movement - dance, walking w/baby in backpack up hill, whatever...
and eat less and eat better. Celery is a good snack. So is water. and when I really really really want something something something more! Frozen fruit, gum, or nuts will just have to do. No more candy, overly sugared anything.
So - I'm going to do this... I AM. I mean it!
~Sarah
I do not own a scale and have absolutely no plans to ever own a scale so I can't keep track of my weight. I've owned scales in the past and when they are in the house - I tend to obsess so I'm not going back to that place... Anyway, I've been keeping track and, even though I've not been able to do a whole lot yet with the little one especially now that his brother has decided to have a nasty-keep-him-home-from-school-type-cough...
In order to keep my progress honest - and keep me motivated to keep working, I figure I'll my measurements instead. I know I'll never quite make it back to where I was if only because of the bust - with each child I gain an inch and perhaps someday I'll get them downsized some.
8/16/06 9/17/06 10/3/06
Bust 45 43 42
Waist 45 40 38
Hips 44 42 41
Butt 46 44 44
Overall - not bad for only two months post-partum and post-operation - especially since I couldn't really lift anything more than Wolverine for the first six weeks. I'm happy with it. I'll be a lot happier when those measurements don't start with 4's though...
~S
I know now just what a toll the near bed-rest of pregnancy and the recovery from surgery had on my body. I've never been in great shape but it used to be I could walk at a nice pace for an hour or so with no problem... Now - I seem to have a limit of about fifteen minutes at a brisk pace... that's pathetic!
In some ways - this pregnancy was great for my health overall. I'm probably in better health overall today than I have been since I was thirteen. The last of my bad habits are gone. I have my first pair of running shoes in ten years (basically since gym was a requirement my senior year in highschool...). I have actual goals instead of concept goals - the difference between I want to be a healthy size 8 rather than I want to be skinny. I think- because of those things and the fact that I know how to cook now - I can actually make those goals by next summer... Next summer being the time that (if one is put together) my high school reunion would happen...
~S
One month post baby... I've lost some inches - which is GREAT. I'll continue to lose them as I get more active. I'm wearing a size 16... a first for me really and one I'm not liking so much. But - only thing I can do is get my act in gear and start working on it... tomorrow begins the walking. I finally got decent shoes.
~S
I am also going to use this blog to document my weight progress. Maybe if I keep myself public - honest - and with PICTURES... I'll stand a better chance of actually acheiving my goals. I'll be taking pictures the day before I have KidTwo and the day after I have KidTwo - with weights - no measurements cause right now - they'd be hugely skewed... my bust line is not normally a 44/46... I swear. It's going to take a while to make my goals because I want to do it as healthily as I can which means only diet and excersize. Even with the diet I can only do so much as I will be nursing and that takes precedence.
My ultimate goal has much less to do with wieght than figure, than shape, than form and function. If I find someone who looks like I want to look like - I'll link to the pic but I really doubt I will. I like my curves - I don't believe in stickthin hollywood beauty - I find it a disgusting thing to see someone's ribs... I like my hips - even if they aren't wide enough for my kids. I like my bust - it's one of my best attributes (even if I do cover it up...). I was once a dancer but I never had the form of a dancer - I am not lithe. I am not willowy or anything resembling that... I am a nonplastic, nonsuctioned, nonairbrushed feminine woman (tomboy internally), who just wants to be normal again - all my pretty curves and all ;)
~S